I like to be with a mature person (I mean 'mature' by mentality, not real age), or say,
I dislike to be with those people who are childish in terms of being irresponsible
for their own action and can't get serious when they are required to be. I still like
people with a young heart though. Being honest, having a fun, feeling happy...
of course that's a good thing. We need to have some jokes to laugh as well.
I'm not saying that they are all wrong...
It may be contraductory but sometimes I miss such days in a childhood
when you can ask 'why?why' or ' what's that?' to everything you wanna know or
you are interesting in, all just for curiousity. You may also cry or argue with
"grown-up" or little friends because you cannot understand the point of 'why not?'.
Some grown-ups are so fake. Surely you cannot just do everything you want,
when you want. Life is not that easy and that's why you need to put some effort and
try to find the way out of the labyrinth. Sometimes I feel tired trying to act nicely to
everyone... especially if they are those 'childish' ones making fun of others.
Then my stresses (especially those associated with my own poor English &
poor understanding in university contents in my everyday life) help me enough
to start avoiding people sometimes. That's when I escape to the virtual world
and start to write my blogs. One good reason to avoid to talk to a real person
is because I know many of them misunderstand me and doesn't realise I
require totally different way of encouragement. Hearing people saying,
'Oh, my poor little girl... that's ok. You don't have to push yourself too hard
nor worry about it too much. You are a good girl, you can make it... etc etc'
after my dozens of excuses, I feel really annoyed. Surely those warm words
can make me relaxed and confident sometimes, but it depends I think...
I dislike to be with those people who are childish in terms of being irresponsible
for their own action and can't get serious when they are required to be. I still like
people with a young heart though. Being honest, having a fun, feeling happy...
of course that's a good thing. We need to have some jokes to laugh as well.
I'm not saying that they are all wrong...
It may be contraductory but sometimes I miss such days in a childhood
when you can ask 'why?why' or ' what's that?' to everything you wanna know or
you are interesting in, all just for curiousity. You may also cry or argue with
"grown-up" or little friends because you cannot understand the point of 'why not?'.
Some grown-ups are so fake. Surely you cannot just do everything you want,
when you want. Life is not that easy and that's why you need to put some effort and
try to find the way out of the labyrinth. Sometimes I feel tired trying to act nicely to
everyone... especially if they are those 'childish' ones making fun of others.
Then my stresses (especially those associated with my own poor English &
poor understanding in university contents in my everyday life) help me enough
to start avoiding people sometimes. That's when I escape to the virtual world
and start to write my blogs. One good reason to avoid to talk to a real person
is because I know many of them misunderstand me and doesn't realise I
require totally different way of encouragement. Hearing people saying,
'Oh, my poor little girl... that's ok. You don't have to push yourself too hard
nor worry about it too much. You are a good girl, you can make it... etc etc'
after my dozens of excuses, I feel really annoyed. Surely those warm words
can make me relaxed and confident sometimes, but it depends I think...
I'm a person who works with 'reverse psychology' and prefer to be scolded in such
times when being down. I feel sick of myself when start to seek excuses,
trying to justify myself of being lazy and not working hard as I supposed to.
I mean, having such warm words is not enough for me. I like to be progressive,
need to see some improvement through whatever I'm doing. I think it applies
in a relationship with friends, especially to those who you want to share your
life more in deep. Some thinks that I want to be led to achieve something, but
I'd rather like to be inspired, I say.
Uhm... this entry is getting too long... what I wanna say is that actually
I'm not those mature person I wanna be with, but maybe that's why I wanna
be with them to be inspired... a person who is just ahead of me, a little enough
that won't make me feel inferior to, and who can scold me througho his (her) jokes
to inspire me would be great... but surely it's hard to meet such person, or
a person who can realise that I want to meet these kind of people...
trying to justify myself of being lazy and not working hard as I supposed to.
I mean, having such warm words is not enough for me. I like to be progressive,
need to see some improvement through whatever I'm doing. I think it applies
in a relationship with friends, especially to those who you want to share your
life more in deep. Some thinks that I want to be led to achieve something, but
I'd rather like to be inspired, I say.
Uhm... this entry is getting too long... what I wanna say is that actually
I'm not those mature person I wanna be with, but maybe that's why I wanna
be with them to be inspired... a person who is just ahead of me, a little enough
that won't make me feel inferior to, and who can scold me througho his (her) jokes
to inspire me would be great... but surely it's hard to meet such person, or
a person who can realise that I want to meet these kind of people...