I like to be with a mature person (I mean 'mature' by mentality, not real age), or say,
I dislike to be with those people who are childish in terms of being irresponsible
for their own action and can't get serious when they are required to be. I still like
people with a young heart though. Being honest, having a fun, feeling happy...
of course that's a good thing. We need to have some jokes to laugh as well.
I'm not saying that they are all wrong...

It may be contraductory but sometimes I miss such days in a childhood
when you can ask 'why?why' or ' what's that?' to everything you wanna know or
you are interesting in, all just for curiousity. You may also cry or argue with
"grown-up" or little friends because you cannot understand the point of 'why not?'.

Some grown-ups are so fake. Surely you cannot just do everything you want,
when you want. Life is not that easy and that's why you need to put some effort and
try to find the way out of the labyrinth. Sometimes I feel tired trying to act nicely to
everyone... especially if they are those 'childish' ones making fun of others.
Then my stresses (especially those associated with my own poor English &
poor understanding in university contents in my everyday life) help me enough
to start avoiding people sometimes. That's when I escape to the virtual world
and start to write my blogs. One good reason to avoid to talk to a real person
is because I know many of them misunderstand me and doesn't realise I
require totally different way of encouragement. Hearing people saying,
'Oh, my poor little girl... that's ok. You don't have to push yourself too hard
nor worry about it too much. You are a good girl, you can make it... etc etc'
after my dozens of excuses, I feel really annoyed. Surely those warm words
can make me relaxed and confident sometimes, but it depends I think...