As same as foundation times, I was surrounded by Cantonese all the time!
Some of them couldn't come yesterday and no one brought their girlfriends
as they did last year so it was only 8 people at total... We went to sunnybank and
had Shanhai cuisine, home-made style(?). It was ok. The fact that I was
hearing only Cantonese was ok too... I mean, it was what happen all the
time before so I didn't really care about that. The only difference now is that
I can speak English! hahaha. Anyway, it was good to hear what everyone is
doing because we could hardly see each other on campus.

I thought 22 yo. is old enough to call a 'big sister' but I don't find
myself mature enough as I imagined... Maybe I need to experience
more things until I feel so. I'm now like a little girl, but my ideal is
actually a 'intellectual sexy', a woman who looks good in a suit and
give an impression that "she can make it!" but also sexy & positive at
the same time. phew... still so far far far away... but I will make it
no matter how long I have to pass through to find my way.

I like to be with a mature person (I mean 'mature' by mentality, not real age), or say,
I dislike to be with those people who are childish in terms of being irresponsible
for their own action and can't get serious when they are required to be. I still like
people with a young heart though. Being honest, having a fun, feeling happy...
of course that's a good thing. We need to have some jokes to laugh as well.
I'm not saying that they are all wrong...

It may be contraductory but sometimes I miss such days in a childhood
when you can ask 'why?why' or ' what's that?' to everything you wanna know or
you are interesting in, all just for curiousity. You may also cry or argue with
"grown-up" or little friends because you cannot understand the point of 'why not?'.

Some grown-ups are so fake. Surely you cannot just do everything you want,
when you want. Life is not that easy and that's why you need to put some effort and
try to find the way out of the labyrinth. Sometimes I feel tired trying to act nicely to
everyone... especially if they are those 'childish' ones making fun of others.
Then my stresses (especially those associated with my own poor English &
poor understanding in university contents in my everyday life) help me enough
to start avoiding people sometimes. That's when I escape to the virtual world
and start to write my blogs. One good reason to avoid to talk to a real person
is because I know many of them misunderstand me and doesn't realise I
require totally different way of encouragement. Hearing people saying,
'Oh, my poor little girl... that's ok. You don't have to push yourself too hard
nor worry about it too much. You are a good girl, you can make it... etc etc'
after my dozens of excuses, I feel really annoyed. Surely those warm words
can make me relaxed and confident sometimes, but it depends I think...

eeeerrrrr, I feel like skipping my class today... (ToT)/

Well... it seems that caffeine is not strongly working on me either...
What can make me awake then??? OMG, that's too bad!!!

next Japanese gathering party. I'm in charge of doing MC for the day, and the
website construction with a help of my IT friend. My uni QUT doesn't have any
Japanese association at the moment, so we are trying to establish one. It seems that
QUT did have one before but it disappeared a few years ago...

Well, I'm a bit under pressure at the moment, but hope I can enjoy doing all these stuffs.
It's a good chance for me to make new friends and rebuild my confidence anyway!

Firstly, telling what happened during these all days, I could manage
to pass all the subjects last semester and survived!!! I seriously
worried about that, but God seems not to abandon me. :D

Now, semester2 has started and I'm getting busier again.
All the subjects are now major-specific and getting more interesting,
but also tougher and tougher. I'm trying to organise my time well
enough to cover all the things I have to do, including playing time
or just relaxing time, but always end up with falling in sleep...zzZZ
I'm already too exhausted to concern all those things!!! Ooooops!

Another thing, I need to organise my clinical replacement for
summer holiday. I want to do it both at local and overseas, if possible,
but it is really difficult to find a hopistal/lab that would accept me

I know it's cool having a tattoo in Chinese characters but
just be careful when choosing them! Some characters might have
several meanings and totally different from what you actually expecting!
What I recommend, is to check both Chinese & Japanese meanings